Michelle
You are a brave soul! I mean, I honestly feel for you. I have not had that experience but my cousin who lives in Canada did. She experienced the same things. It was not pleasant for her. She visited the doctor monthly for quite a while to have the cells or growths removed. She is a very nurturing person and was dismayed when the doctor told her that her chances of bearing children were extremely slim. If she did manage to become pregnant, there would be complications and would not carry to full term. I don't know if you believe in God or a Creator but, a miracle happened, she became pregnant, carried her baby to full term, and gave birth to a baby boy, who is now five years old (and quite a little terror). She is 36 now, happily married, has her son, and leads a very healthy lifestyle. The past was taken care of in time and she has always thought positive things about herself and others. It's okay to be scared, it's only natural as a human being. You are being taken care of by extremely good doctors and specialists. I hope this helps you a little bit. My heart is with you in your time of need and being frightened. Think positive and look forward to a bright future - for you are a young and beautiful person! Truly and sincerely, Michelle